Wednesday, July 18, 2007 Wednesday, July 18, 2007
ok, i guess i'm able to blog something now.
science today.
2nd break, went to Kame's house with Wen Jie. i was so caught in the middle while they were both squabbling n pushing each other. Wen Jie was like: "Farhana, don't follow Kame uh. we hide from her ah, let her go home by herself."
Kame's mum was like making Wen Jie & i eat the instant pizza their maid did for us. Wen Jie & i made each other take one pizza and gradually finishing it. and it was a clash of the "Giants" during the journey back to school.
training.
we did 2 sets of criss crosses across the field. rested. then, we did a slow jog-sprint-slow jog-sprint around the field for 7 rounds. one set of slow jog-sprint-slow jog-sprint is one round. i guess i managed to do 6. rested, at this point of time, my body had second thoughts of continuing however, my mind made me to continue.
had to do 3 sets of shuttle run that Faz made at the field. i managed to do at least 2 sets however, my body was giving way already, giving the waring signal that i shan't continue HOWEVER, MY MIND just won't allow my body to do what it wants so, me, as a person was in a confusion and i SERIOUSLY don't know what to do. i really want to improve my stamina and all but i can't as i think i have astham and due to my health, i find it as a hindrance, an obstacle which i don't wanna face. so, from that, i broke down and cried. i don't know whether i should be apologising but breathlessness wasn't really the big reason why i cried. it's 'cause of what i just said. i think my expectations is too high. i don't know. i just wanna achieve what i wanna achieve.
came back home after dinner. that's when i started ranting to my 3 friends: Einn, Isa and Danesh, about the training today. While I was ranting, I was like crying at the same time uh. I had to let it all out. I can’t stand to leave it be inside me any more. I have to let it all go.
Don’t know if I’m alright now. You can say that I’m still emo-ing. Pfft. Alright, damn wireless giving me headaches.
Why do I always look out for you?Cheers!
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