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Sunday, July 30, 2006 Sunday, July 30, 2006
happy birthday nurhazlyn!!-when happiness, peace and love came into the world! huahahaha.Sunday. another dreading day for me. actually, we're suppose to be like relax on sunday right? well, ok. not too relax. we have to do some revisions and all but besides all those, we're to rest for at least a day or something right?hmm...so much of rest i had.i had to go to my grandparents' place. you know, visit them. that, i don't mind as it has been a long time since i've met them. after that, that's when all the anger came. i went to my grandparents' place, wearing my eyeliner. i've been dying to wear it one day. even my friends can't seem to wait to see me in it. however, my parents' told me not to wear it.dad: don't wear it again ah.mum: ya, do you see me wearing it? no right?me: (in my mind) wth. it's my business la! i'm not you. *rolls eyes*i mean, seriously. what? it's better for me to do that or be punk rather than be bung right? i mean, really man. sometimes, my parents are just ain't straight forward enough, i just don't get it! what the hell are you trying to tell me? well, i thought that that incident was just it but no... later at night, it was like just now, i was doing my homework la. dad told me to wash the dishes. ok, i know but wait. i'm busy doing malay. so he went back in his room. when he came out again, he found that the dishes aren't washed yet. he started yelling in the middle of the night. I KNOW LA!!!! CANNOT WAIT IS IT? people here have more important things to do than washing dishes la!it's quiet now. hopefully, they're sleeping. man, it's like waiting for a century to have peace in the house. ok, i have only till 1am to be online. haha.ok, this is what chhloee dear asked me:are you bung?wakakakakaakakakaka! am not. i don't want already. i'm damn lazy to be one anyway. i just wanna be who i am, that's all.WHAT!!!! art is due 11th AUGUST?!?!?! are you sure? wtf la, wtf. i just hate art sometime but because our dear Lester is a little sickly, i can't bear to hate her that much. dammit.mi darling novio
loves.hugs.cuddles.kisses.everything!<3ain't he sexy? no? get outta here...cheers!-30th July 2006
Friday, July 28, 2006 Friday, July 28, 2006
One Damn Tiring Weekman, this week was hell for me. it's not like i had a lot of homework...wait, actually, i do... anyway, the main reason was, i was oh so tired. yuppyupp. i played football on monday with Melanie, Jesslyn, Camille, Cheryl, Jo Low and some of their bball juniors. oh, and guess what? i didn't stretch my legs so i'm having the aftermath of playing football: leg cramps and i still have it till now lars!!! wtf!MATH!!! yay!!! i know how do to some questions that i couldn't do last time already! loves!! i am sooo gonna do properly for math la...it's mdm yeo we're talking about here. she's so damn good la. if only i have her brain. i'm so gonna pass math like shit la.had art to end my week off. wtf. nice. superb. however, surprisingly, she didn't came looking for me. seriously, i don't know why. i just felt like not to see her. i wasn't in the mood. i didn't do much artwork during the weekends too or else i would have had a long lecture by her yet again. during self study, i took the opportunity to write in some darn letter saying that i had to do art, but so much of art i did. well, i did a bit but i was so tired, i took quite a long nap. don't worry, my teacher slept too. this was what she said earlier," ok girls, we will be doing prep today cuz i ain't feeling so good." old grandma saying 'ain't'. that's cool. hahahaha.later on, i had to go for my NPCC phototaking. i am so gonna miss NPCC for sure. all those harsh times when i was still a Private.damn, it was hell but it was hellofafun( if there's such a word). i'm so gonna miss the seniors who made me who i am today.all those naggings and scoldings were never forgotten. LOVE YOU GUYS!MELANIE!!!! i didn't get to see hotstuff or sepet the whole of friday!! well, i did saw heavenly but do you think that's enough? NOT! however, i will still see my HEAVEN everyday!!have i put this picture up? who cares..loves Cesc..kiss.muacks.cuddles.hugs.
and check out this out...old me
new me
cheers-28th July 2006
Tuesday, July 25, 2006 Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Make Damn SureYou've got this new head filled up with smokeI've got my veins all tangled closeTo the jukebox bars you frequentThe safest place to hideA long night spent with your most obvious weaknessYou start shaking at the thought you are everything I want'Cause you are everything I'm notAnd we lay, we lay together just notToo close, too close (How close is close enough?)We lay, we lay together just notToo close, too closeI just wanna break you down so badlyWell I trip over everything you sayI just wanna break you down so badlyIn the worst wayMy inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kitIt talks, it says, "You, oh, you are so cool.""Scissor shaped across the bed, you are red, violent red."You hollow out my hungry eyesYou hollow out my hungry eyesAnd we lay, we lay together just notToo close, too close (How close is close enough?)We lay, we lay together just notToo close, too closeI just wanna break you down so badlyWell I trip over everything you sayWell I just wanna break you down so badlyIn the worst wayI just wanna break you down so badlyWell I trip over everything you sayI just wanna break you down so badlyIn the worst way (worst way)I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leaveNo, you won't ever get too far from meYou won't ever get too far from meI'll make damn sure that you can't ever leaveNo, you won't ever get too far from meYou won't ever get too far from meYou won't ever get too far from meYou won't ever get too far...I just wanna break you down so badlyWell I trip over everything you sayWell I just wanna break you down so badlyIn the worst way (worst way)I'm gonna make damn sureI just wanna break you down so badlyI just wanna break you down so badly (damn sure)In the worst way (worst way)love this song...btw, sepet is sooo cute!!!cheers-25th July 2006
Friday, July 21, 2006 Friday, July 21, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAYA-PAPS!!!WADDUP!!aiya... i only get to see 1 half of them today. i think i have talked about one of them before...she's hot stuff. remember? ok, what shall i name the other one? i know!!! sepet! cool! loves! hahaha!man, my' that friend's' problem. it's still going on la but i dont think that its going anywhere yet. yeah. dont wanna talk about it la. im so disinterested when it comes to that topic. ive done my part to make her walk the correct path. all i gotta do now is just wait.OMG!!!! guess what? i saw a FERNANDO TORRES lookalike today ay Toa Payoh!!! the one that melanie had been trying to find to show me!! OMG!!!! he is sooooo good looking! FFUUYYOOHH!!!! and what's more, he's from SASS!! and from the data that i've received from skye, he's sec 5!!! weess!!! ATTACK AH!!! wakakakakaka!yes, yes. when it comes to washing my eyes, im sooo good at it. any ok good looking guys walk pass, i'll ask melanie to check him out. whether he's good looking or not.I LOVE FRANCESC FABREGAS!!!cheers-21st July 2006
Sunday, July 16, 2006 Sunday, July 16, 2006
Blardy Art!!!man, i should have like taken POA la!! i'd rather do some numbers than drawing. and what's more, it's not like i can draw or something. why didn't i inherit my dad's genes? he CAN draw for goodness sake! my other siblings loves to draw lar!!! im dying here.... im melting...help me....( pretending to melt, crawling on the floor) help...me....(trying to grab onto something. as if im in quicksand)...grab my hand....grab it!....uuuurrrgghhhh....bbbbllleeeuuurrrgghhh.....(sinking into what looks like a quicksand) OK, THAT'S ENOUGH FARHANA....IT'S NOT HOLLYWOOD...I'VE FOUND OUT SOMETHING!!!EMO=PUNK.PUNK=EMO...and know what...i love to listen to punk songs. from taking back sunday(love their songs) to MCR( love them too!!!!). if you go to my pc, you'll find tons of unknown bands in my playlist. i mean, for those who dont listen to rock music. oh, and i love black. so, does that makes me a punky?i don't know but i know that i love the rock scene....FIY(for your info)...Valentino Rossi(italian) won the German track race today(motorbike race). nice. italy won the world cup in Germany, he won the title in Germany. so...italy kinda like won a lot of things this year, huh...BUT Juventus got relegated! muahahahahahaha....go,go...match fixing some more la...man, another school day tomorrow...jia lat la... i so dont look forward to school already la...damn the art subject...but nevermind...once in a while, i can still wash my eyes in school. BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN I LIKE GIRLS... i just find some cute...especially when these 2 walk side by side... wha...heaven la but not HEAVEN yet....wakakaka....HEAVEN is CESC FABREGAS!!!okok, i'll stop here...adios-16th July 2006
Friday, July 14, 2006 Friday, July 14, 2006
no more World Cup already...so i'll be writing about my life then... i mean what happened today and stuff like that. well...here i go.today. 14th July 2006. i will never forget this day. it's the day that i felt that everything was going against me. start of school was fine. had some chemistry practical. i like it though. that wasn't so bad until i had art. seriously, i need someone like my mum or mrs leicester to YELL at me to do something. im so sorry but i'm like that kind of person. however, that doesn't mean that i shouldn't change me character. i've to quit behaving that way and start afresh. i know people kind of like hate my kind of character as they want us to take the initiative but it's hard to not do it overnight, you see. im not like the sky, which can change from dark to light. im like a butterfly/moth that changes for a very long time in a cocoon(is that how you spell it?).another paragraph! another point la. hahas. i just felt like writing this. NOTICE: ALL NAMES HAVE BEEN CHANGED DUE TO IDENTIFICATION PURPOSES( if there are names). IF IT SOUNDS SO FAMILIAR, IT'S JUST MERE COINCIDENCE. i feel like a reporter!!! anyway, what's so nice about being attached? i mean...no offence la for those who're attached but if you're so desperate to be attached, then it's a whole different story. i admit that i was once like that too but i learnt from my flaws and found out that it was rather unnecessary. i just effect your studies and sometime, your relationship with your friends. well, that maybe a reason why im still single now for like 17 years. it's not wrong to have guy friends. i do have guy friends but they're just my friends, no more( i cant imagine myself having a boyfriend). bleahs... anyhoo, it tore my heart open when i found out that one of my friend chose HIM than Os. ( i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut...that nice song by PAPA ROACH) *shakes head...very disappointed indeed. let me change that. VERY DISAPPOINTED INDEED!!! however, i did my part to advise her and yet she didnt want to listen. what am i suppose to do? i did what i could. what a let down she is.anyway, i feel so emo right now. im not like that last time but my bestie said i was. *shrugs... what the heck...i feel MORE emo now...feel like listening to emo rock songs now and cry to it. oh, now i know why im so emo...ever since i watched SI. paul and joakim's story. moved me, y'all. paul's side of the story is that he wasnt very close to his parents but he is now due to SI. all those who watched it, you know what i mean. im like him too but there's a difference. im okok close to my family. we talk but it somehow feels like this: SO NEAR YET SO FAR. geddit? there has never been a time i said i love you to my parents, hug them or even kiss them on their cheek. well, maybe when i was younger but not now (man, im like crying while writing this). anyhoo, yea. it's not like i dread asking for forgiveness on the morning of hari raya but i will go emo when i do that and cry. shites la. no one in my family know who im exactly is. even myself, i dont even know who am i. WHAT THE FARK!! im like living in a body and trying to live life to the fullest. to my friends, I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! ok, reason for why i dont like hugging people. i want to hug people but something in me just stops me from doing it. maybe because i dont feel my parents' love, but i know they love me, as they dont hug or kiss me everynight. i dont even say goodnight to them. im a farking bad child. i suck. i so dont rock, please! ok, back to the point. yea, i just never had a warm hug before. excluding the warmest hug from ESTHER LOKE when we sent her off to Aust. that was the best hug! LOVES!!! man, i wanna cry now. i dont know why...yea, so i guess you know the real FARHANA NURHIDA now. im still finding out who the farking hell i am so, keep a lookout of my posts ok? and let's see what i've found out about myself. I NEED SOME SOUL SEARCHING!!love this song.Scars-Papa Roach.tear my heart open, I sew myself shutMy weakness is that I care too muchAnd my scars remind me that the past is realI tear my heart open just to feelDrunk and I'm feeling downAnd I just wanna be aloneI'm pissed cause you came aroundWhy don't you just go homeCause you channel all your painAnd I can't help you fix yourselfYou're making me insaneAll I can say is[Chorus:]I tear my heart open, I sew myself shutMy weakness is that I care too muchAnd our scars remind us that the past is realI tear my heart open just to feelI tried to help you onceAgainst my own adviceI saw you going downBut you never realizedThat you're drowning in the waterSo I offered you my handCompassions in my natureTonight is our last stand[Chorus]I'm drunk and I'm feeling downAnd I just wanna be aloneYou shouldn't ever come aroundWhy don't you just go home?Cause you're drowning in the waterAnd I tried to grab your handAnd I left my heart openBut you didn't understandBut you didn't understandGo fix yourselfI can't help you fix yourselfBut at least I can say I triedI'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own lifeI can't help you fix yourselfBut at least I can say I triedI'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life[Chorus x2]loves cesc.cheers-14th July 2006.
Sunday, July 09, 2006 Sunday, July 09, 2006
I TOLD YOU SO!!!!man, people should come seek me for advice if they want to bet on football. however, i will not use this precious talent of mine and go bet myself. i can't do it. it's sinful!! hahahaha. but it's not bad that Portugal finished 4th. it's a historic thing, alright! if only Spain was in the top 4. i'll be the happiest person!__________________________________________________________________________________________________well, i'm back home. no, no. not my Manchester home. my other home, Madrid. i'm currently staying at my grandparents' house. i was invited to have a trail here. national team. FIFA had a women's world cup at 2003. so, they're having it again next year. so, here i am. cesc's was in Madrid a few days ago but he's back with his parents now. before he left for home, he gave me my birthday present in a form of a Nike shoebox and fernando gave me a small box. cesc gave me a new football boot! it's the one that i really wanted. cris's shoe that is. love cesc. and fernando, he gave me a charm bracelet. so sweet of him! love him too! actually, everyone went back to their respective 'homes'. so i was like left alone in Madrid. well, at least i have sergio for company. it has been a long since i went back to Madrid.man, the coach of the team was rather strict and fierce but i like it. that's how i improve mysef. i need someone to tell me off when im not performing well. anyway, im in. thank God. im so gonna play well for the qualifying rounds! plus, Spain has never made it so, im making sure that we'll make it. cant wait!!! miss you, cesc!!!
cheers!- 9th July 2006
Thursday, July 06, 2006 Thursday, July 06, 2006
well, my predictions for the past 2 matches were VERY accurate. i mean the teams that i predicted to win the matches actually won. i predicted that Italy will go through to the finals and so does France and guess what, it happened. it's all gut feeling, man. i love myself! i rock! hahahahaha! the Italy v Germany match was a little boring as the Italians only began scoring at the last 2 mins of extra time. however, it was nice watching Luca Toni playing. Luv him! eventhough i know that France will make through to the finals, i think that they did not earn it. i mean, they got the goal just by luck. it's not a nice win, really. i don't like it. it would be much better if France had shot their goal normally as in not a penalty. Also, Portugal was supposed to receive a penalty as 1 of the french defender deliberately pushed Cristiano Ronaldo down. stupid referree! blind!1st: Italia2nd: France3rd: Germany4th: PortugalItaly will win the World Cup. *gut feelings only ah...after Spain had went back home, i couldn't possibly be admiring Cesc already so i took the trouble to find other good looking players and boy, do i have a handful. haha. I AM NOT BETRAYING CESC!!! anyway, i realised that other than Cristiano Ronaldo, there is Helder Postiga. whoa. he's not bad looking. Gaya B agrees with me, man! and there's this Nuno Valente but he look much nicer when he plays. i saw a picture of him on the net and he suck. bleah XD! there's another player from Italy. Luca Toni's his name. not bad, average looking but he looks cute when he scored a goal the other time. haha. and there's Del Piero and Francesco Totti. hot, old men. haha. the pictures in the links are not updated so they might look a bit bleah...Helder Postiga
well, i'll be looking forward to the last 2 matches! especially the finals! i can't wait to see who'll win the Cup! the match is gonna be VERY exciting! oh, before i finish off my post, Cesc might be going to Real Madrid!!! LUVS!!! erm...both the player and the team. heh. alright, gotta go now.* loves the Portuguese national anthem! click
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the PortugeseHeroes of the sea, noble race,Valiant and immortal nation, Now is the hour to raise up on high once morePortugal's splendour. From out of the mists of memory, Oh Homeland, we hear the voicesOf your great forefathersThat shall lead you on to victory!
CHORUS: To arms, to armsOn land and sea! To arms, to armsTo fight for our Homeland! To march against the enemy guns!
Unfurl the unconquerable flagIn the bright light of your sky! Cry out all Europe and the whole worldThat Portugal has not perished. Your happy land is kissedBy the Ocean that murmurs with love. And your conquering armHas given new worlds to the world!
CHORUS
Salute the Sun that risesOn a smiling future: Let the echo of an insult beThe signal for our revival. The rays of that powerful dawnAre like a mother's kissesThat protect us and support usAgainst the insults of fate.
CHORUS
