♥ Mr. Freddy

Monday, May 22, 2006 Monday, May 22, 2006

7 more days to MT Os!!

well, well...what am i doing online when I AM SUPPOSED TO BE PRACTISING MALAY!!! erm, it's not like i don't care but i can't help it. i'm a 1 marshmellow girl and that means i'm not gonna excel in the future. SHIT!!! oh...no. that ain't gonna happen!

i am so 'proud' of my mid year exam results! you know why? i failed most of the papers! however, I AM DELIGHTED that i am there for my malay papers. I MISSED MY B4 BY A MARK!!! ARGH!!! mummy's gonna kill me this saturday. parents are to come to school to collect the report books PLUS to meet our form teacher. mrs. pillai better give good comments about me. i've been a very good girl lately. well, besides the homework part. hehe.

i don't know what happened. i know that i have to accept change but i can't seem to accept the change that i am receiving. it's not like we are not talking to them, it's because of the change that is happening too fast. besides, that change ain't a good one and i'm kinda disappointed about it. however, it's their life. they can follow whatever path they want. we are not their mothers to control their life and i know i wouldn't want my life to be controlled by anyone else but God. i'm not sure what my friends thinks about them but i'm pretty sure they are not happy with their ultimately fast change. as for me, i don't mind being your friends but please follow the right path for once. i've been in the same situation before and i know how it feels like thus, i changed too, for the better. when i was in that situation, i was very immature. the things that i did didn't bring any good stuff in life but more troubles. so, here i am. a new person, and i love it but...i gotta reduce the football mania for a moment. thank God world cup's during June! phew!

if you feel that i am talking about you, dear reader, i just hope that you'll understand. this is just how i felt. disappointed.

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-on the phone-

"luis told me that he saw you and cesc together. is that true?" cristiano asked sternly.

" yeah, we were just hanging out. i went to the club we always go and coincidentally, i met cesc. i didn't see luis by the way," i explained.

"luis told me you were very close to cesc and you were having fun!" he shouted into the phone.

"he told this stupid joke! wouldn't you laugh? and for your info, i was drunk. like hell i need someone to hold onto!" i protested.

" yeah right. you're just making excuses. doing things when i am away and one more thing, you left the club with him too, "he said.

"he brought me home, ok! what IS your problem? at least i didn't go sleeping around with other guys unlike you!" i retorted.

"hey! don't bring that subject into this matter!" he exclaimed.

"huh...guilty! you're no better!" i said immediately, hung up on him and off my mobile.

how could he just assume things without clarifying the matter with me?he's just so... argh!! i don't blame luis, though. he's just being a good friend to cristiano. gosh, shit just happens don't they?

cristiano

VS

cesc